Here I am in my indoor hammock, stuck at home because it’s raining. It couldn’t be more perfectly timed just when I’m feeling blue. So there I was watching droplets of rain as they create ripples on the ground. Not realizing I have been staring blankly at the pouring rain. How could this rain be so beautiful yet so painful inside.
My mind was somewhere else. It was traveling back in time. To that moment when two souls crashed a shed to let the rain pass by. Two happy souls full of unspoken feelings, hopeful for better future. There, we were all smiles sharing stories of our silly childhood years trying to know each other in a deeper perspective. Laughing at how different our culture are.
The rain did stop, but not long enough it started pissing down proper hard and had to crash another shed. Read poems that relates to what we exactly feel; loud laughters and warm smiles, beautiful penetrating stares, I miss those. We were just waiting for the rain to stop, we didn’t realize we were making a bitter- sweet memory then.
Rain never fully stopped, it turned into tiny droplets and we had to drive back. Warm hug from my back, grasping hands on my stomach, life never been this better. The warmth, it felt like home. We were cruising under the droplets of rain, running over 70kph, I never felt so happy. It was a bliss. Then the silly argument involving mispronunciation and childish behaviour. It ruined everything.
Minutes of not talking, minutes turned hours and the rain never stopped. And so was my sadness. Morning came and there you were, with me but just not the same. We were just lying in bed, heart beats in unison, staring blankly at the ceiling, not breaking the mood, as we listened to Take Me on repeat, it was a heavy feeling. Both thinking of the impending separation. Both realizing sepanx was real. Now spoken feelings trapped inside the four corners of the room, trying to break havoc. outside wasn’t any better typhoon was inevitable.
The last night together…
We were being spontaneous trying to spend as much time together as we could, shared cigarette sticks, stolen kisses, secret glances, hammock shenanigans, messy sheets, hint of tequila on your tongue, fingers intertwined, naughty grins, heartfelt giggles, cold hands on my nape, lingering touches, warm breathes, fingers playing with your hair, peck on the nose, fingers tracing your face, natural scent, deep kisses, warm hugs, palpitations, soft whispers – I love you’s. It was heaven on earth!
I blinked once and suddenly pulled back to reality. I swear it felt so real, it all seemed like yesterday only that it was ages ago. I completely zoned out, and for a couple of minutes I am immobile. To then realise that my face is drench with tears. Its still raining, I’m still feeling blue, you’re still not here. I sobbed.
Rain has never been my best friend, for a lost soul like me I dreaded rain only because it ruins plans, and it makes me stay in one place which gives me massive time to think. But rain as previously implied, is both beautiful and depressing. And as much as I want to hate it, I just can’t cause it reminds me of those lovely moments with you. No matter how bitter-sweet those memories were, no matter how much tears I cried every time I look back to it. Those were my precious moments with you, our moments together, we were happy, ecstatic even. We were in love, but just not meant to be.
We love each other that’s for sure, Just may be not the right amount of love. Just may be not the kind of love that is strong enough to move mountains. But I miss you, been missing you, will be missing you, and yano I love you.
Camotes Island is a group of islands in the Camotes Sea, Philippines. The island group is located east of Cebu Island, southwest of Leyte Island, and north of Bohol Island. It is 34 nautical miles (63 km; 39 mi) from Cebu City and is part of the province of Cebu. Sometimes known as the “Lost Horizon of the south”, within recent years Camotes has seen increased visitors and tourism and a growing expatriate community. Apart from natural attractions on land, there is also a score of dive sites around the islands. Also in the Camotes Islands you can find tourist spots such as Buho Rock, Greenlake Park, Mt. Calvary (Kalbaryo), Lake Danao and the vast mangrove swamp along the sides of the road from Pacijan (San Francisco) to Poro. There are many underground caves such as Bukilat Cave, Timubo Cave and Guadalupe Cave which has a fresh water underground lake…
For all you thought, you need a new place to stay,
But you did not realize that your home is where her smile is at.
You thought someone can make you happier,
But you did not realize that her laugh is what makes you the happiest.
You thought someone came to be your sun,
But you did not realize that she is your moon that lights you up in your darkest night.
You thought someone’s sweeter than her,
But you did not realize that she is the cause of your most painful toothache that’s worth suffering for.
You thought that just because someone can give you her everything, she’s better than her.
But you did not realize, she had already given the last piece of her.
And you thought that you’re already in love with someone else but you… You forgot that you’ve already given your heart to her. And that’s when you realize that she still has it.
Yes, you lost her.
But then you realized, you also lost yourself.
Do you ever know how heartbreak sounds like? It’s like a missed kiss on your cheek before the alarm goes off. It sounds like the morning shower never taken. It sounds like a cooked breakfast for two taken by one. It’s sounds like the lack of voice saying your name plus the word beautiful in one sentence. They say you’d get that gut feel when a relationship is about to go down the drain.
I didn’t only had that gut feel, I have that feeling in my entire body, from the hairs on my arms, to my skin, down to my bones. The feeling of sadness seeps through my body down to my very soul. Most of the time i lay on my bed, eyes unfocused as Igazed at the ceiling, the past and the future a blank.
Waiting for that knock on the door that never really came. It was oppressive, suffocating – so quiet thatit eventually became a roar that drowned out everything else. I feel myself shrinking, like a sand castleslowly being washed away with every wave.
My mom is lecturing me while her eyes full of pity. Better days are coming she says. Days are breaking in all it’s new found glory yet, all i can think about is the past. Why didn’t you ever tell me that the foundation you taught me to stand on is made fromquicksand?
How can i ever get pass this roaring silence and numbing pain? I hope this downward spiral life will find an uphillslope soon.
Love is a variety of feelings, states, and attitudes that ranges from interpersonal affection (“I love my mother”) to pleasure (“I loved that meal”). It can refer to an emotion of a strong attraction and personal attachment. It can also be a virtuerepresenting human kindness, compassion, and affection—”the unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another”. It may also describe compassionate and affectionate actions towards other humans, one’s self or animals. – www.wikipedia.com
Love, for me is yet the most difficult term to define, to put meaning to. It is so complicated that it is better left undefined into writings, and let you put your own meaning into it. Coz in the end, what matters most is not how you define it, but how you feel it and how you put action into it. In this article, I will be listing 10 signs of being head-over-heels in love with someone and you will be the judge if you think it is healthy or it belongs to those creepy love stories:
1. When you can’t stop smiling when you think of that person – this is very common to those people who are very in love. For no reason at all, you just can’t help smiling when you think of her/his beautiful face, or the sound of her/his voice.
2. When you can’t sleep just by thinking of that person – When you’re all alone at night, in your bed and even so, you ar still thinking of her/him. When you’re moments together keep on popping in your mind causing you to be awake more than ever.
3. When your happiness relies on her/ his happiness – it is when you exert extra effort for her/him, to the point of forgetting your own happiness. keeping in mind that her/ his happiness is your happiness. It is somehow called being selfless.
4. When you find peace of mind when you’re together – it is when you feel more at ease and calm knowing that she/ he is near you. And it seems like being with her/ him is right where you belong perfectly. You’re contented of just lying on your bed, holding her/ him close.
5. When you are uneasy when you can’t see her/ him – it feels like your day is not complete without seeing her/him. It’s like your heart is crushed into pieces.
6. When you can’t eat knowing that she/he still haven’t eaten yet – that guilt feeling you feel knowing she/he is starving and you’re there eating yourself out. And so you decide to wait for her/ him and just eat together.
7. When you’re always uneasy when she/he is hanging-out with friends without you – when you can’t stand the thought of her/ him out with friends on a weekend and you’re left at home doing some boring stuff.
8. When you always want to know her/ his whereabouts – Creepy may it seem but you always want to know everything about her/him. From the food she/he eats, Stuff she/he does, you always wanna know her/ his move.
9. When you can’t stop staring at her/ him while she/he sleeps – even when your partner is sleeping, you watch her/his every breath. You’re amaze by the rising and falling of her/his chest as she/ he breaths. And then you think to yourself how lucky you are for having her/him in your life.
10. When all you ever text with is her/ him – you only have one single contact you text with every day, you only have one contact you call and communicate with. Your heart melts every time you receive a message from her/him, and you always gets excited when your phone rings and you find out she/he is calling.
What ever it is that you feel to your significant others, just always bear in mind, that at the end of the day, you don’t own anybody and although you’re in a relationship with her/him, you don’t get to say how they should live there lives. What you can do is to show them how you feel and hope for the best, that they would love you back.
Ahhh… valentines, brings out the unusual sweetness of people. And so for this article, I will be sharing a letter I borrowed from a friend, she acquired from the recent valentines day celebration…
To Piglet with love,
When I first met you I knew that you will become an important part of my life. What I didn’t know back then was that you will be “My Life”.
There are times when I wonder about how things have worked out for us. When we first started, we were unsure about where and how things were going to be. I knew in my heart that I love you for as long as I can remember but wasn’t sure if you felt the same. But we took a leap of faith and look at where we are right now, still together. Not a day gone by when I don’t feel grateful to have found you. Sometimes when you’re not aware, I look at you and think to myself “I’m the happiest person in the world for having you” I’m not saying this to flatter you, but instead to let you know how much you mean to me.
We’ve had our share of ups and downs, we have issues, and through all the tough times, we managed to make our way and still remain strong. Many times when we argue I have wondered, what we see in each other. And then I look back on the wonderful times that we have shared together and realized, Arguing or not arguing, being with you, made everything worth it. After every silly argument, we sit together and laugh at it, and it makes us even stronger.
I am sorry for the tears you’ve cried and times you almost give up on us because of my faults. Thank you, for giving me the chance to be a part of your life, and sticking up with me despite my faults. You are my confidante, my best friend, my source of happiness, my dream come true. You effortlessly become a center of my world, and I know I would be so lost without you.
You’re the one who means the most to me. You will forever be my pretty little Ehu girl. I love you to the moon and back, to infinity and beyond. Happy Valentines Day 🙂
Always and forever,
Some people are just so fortunate enough to have found someone who loves them and cherish every memories with them. On the other hand, there are people who are yet to find that special person, my unsolicited advice, be patient, take your time, enjoy life. That person will come in the right place and time. By then, make it a point to appreciate and acknowledge their presence in your life.
Happy valentines day:-)
“When You’re happy, you enjoy the music. When you’re sad, you understand the meaning”For Parch who wrote this interpretation, Thanks!
Disclaimer : This is not my interpretation, I am merely publishing what I read in the internet while I was searching for the meaning of the song “Skinny Love”, I came a cross to this interpretation. Parch, the one who wrote his thoughts about this song, thanks I believe your interpretation is far closer than to those I read on the same site.
I gotta say, I’ve listened to most of the versions of this song, and I have to say that Birdy’s version is technically fine, but it just sounds like a sad girl singing a song. The version of this that Bon Iver sings on Jools is by far the best. He’s not just sad, but he captures the essence of a failing relationship. You can just feel the anger, depression and desperation in his voice when he sings it. With that said, this is my interpretation.
First, I believe skinny love to just mean a relationship where the love has faded and the relationship is weak. But I believe the proper term should be “anorexic love”, because he is trying to inject all the love he can into the relationship, but it seems as if she keeps rejecting it, and letting the love waste away.
**He may be talking to the figurative relationship, or he may be actually talking to his girl, but I think he’s just begging for the relationship to last a little longer. He knows it won’t work out because she can’t nurture the love, so he’s just begging that it last long enough so that he can prepare himself for the inevitable breakup.
Pour a little salt we were never here Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer
**They must have just had a big fight and he’s just asking to pretend it never happened. Just pour salt to help the wound heal, and pretend they were never they’re fighting. Then he starts surveying that damage done in the relationship. Its like if you’ve been punched in the mouth, you run to the sink to wash up and you’re spitting out blood and teeth into the sink. The interesting thing is veneer is what you use for fake teeth, but it’s also a term to describe polishing something to make it look better than it really is.
So “crushed veneer” is also another was to say that his view of how good and awesome he may have thought the relationship was, has just been crushed.
I tell my love to wreck it all, Cut out all the ropes and let me fall
****He knows the break is going to happen so he’s trying tell himself to cut off his emotions and fall out of love so it won’t hurt as bad.
Right in this moment this order’s tall
***A tall order is another way of saying you are asking too much out of something. As much as he want’s to cut his emotions, he know’s it’s not a feat he can carry out. He loved her too much and knows he can’t just fall out of love right on the spot.
And I told you to be patient, And told you to be fine And I told you to be balanced, And I told you to be kind
***These are the things he’s been asking his love to do, and if she would just do them, the relationship would’ve lived and been perfect. Notice in this instance, kind means her just being nice to him, but then. . .
In the morning I’ll be with you, But it will be a different “kind”
****He knows when he wakes up the next morning with her, everything will be different. He’ll be with her, but it will be a different “kind” of being with her. In other words, he’ll be physically next to her, but not as a couple. Also it means that she will be kind to him, but not in a loving way, but more of a kindness that comes out of pity, because she is trying to let him down easy.
I’ll be holding all the tickets, And you’ll be owning all the fines
***As someone else said, basically he’s holding all the memories and punishments for the relationship, while she makes out like a bandit with the fine money so to speak. In other words, he left feeling shitty about what has happened, while she wont care as much and sees the break as getting her freedom back.
Come on skinny love what happened here, Suckle on the hope in lite brassiere
***This one’s kinda tough. I think he’s just pleading with his love to feed off whatever little hope there is left in the relationship. Babies suckle, but if it’s a light brassiere then that means there’s not much in that bra to suck on. Basically, he’s pleading with his love to just stay with him a little longer and just hope she will love him more.
**Sullen means kinda like beat up and moving slow. So I think that’s the skinny, malnourished love they had. They aren’t breaking up in some passionate way, it’s just that the love is dying slowly, hence, slow on the split (up).
And now all your love is wasted? And then who the hell was I?
****He’s saying that if the breakup happens, any love she managed to have for him is wasted. He feels like her love was all that ever mattered, and that anything good he felt about himself was because of that great feeling being loved gives you, so he defined himself through her love and the relationship. As a result, if her love was just a big waste, what does that make him?
And now I’m breaking at the britches
***Him breaking at the britches just means he’s falling apart now.
And at the end of all your lines
***Just imagine her as a metropolitan bus line and now he’s at the end of any line that bus could take him. He can’t even transfer to another bus because there are no more buses that will take him any further.
Who will love you? Who will fight? Who will fall far behind?
***Now he’s just wondering who will love her and fight for her as hard as he was willing to, and he believes that most of the men she will date will just fall behind in deserving her love.
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