Love & Hate Relationship With The Rain

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Here I am in my indoor hammock, stuck at home because it’s raining. It couldn’t be more perfectly timed just when I’m feeling blue. So there I was watching droplets of rain as they create ripples on the ground. Not realizing I have been staring blankly at the pouring rain. How could this rain be so beautiful yet so painful inside.

My mind was somewhere else. It was traveling back in time. To that moment when two souls crashed a shed to let the rain pass by. Two happy souls full of unspoken feelings, hopeful for better future. There, we were all smiles sharing stories of our silly childhood years trying to know each other in a deeper perspective. Laughing at how different our culture are.

The rain did stop, but not long enough it started pissing down proper hard and had to crash another shed. Read poems that relates to what we exactly feel; loud laughters and warm smiles, beautiful penetrating stares, I miss those. We were just waiting for the rain to stop, we didn’t realize we were making a bitter- sweet memory then.

Rain never fully stopped, it turned into tiny droplets and we had to drive back. Warm hug from my back, grasping hands on my stomach, life never been this better. The warmth, it felt like home. We were cruising under the droplets of rain, running over 70kph, I never felt so happy. It was a bliss. Then the silly argument involving mispronunciation and childish behaviour. It ruined everything.

Minutes of not talking, minutes turned hours and the rain never stopped. And so was my sadness. Morning came and there you were, with me but just not the same. We were just lying in bed, heart beats in unison, staring blankly at the ceiling, not breaking the mood, as we listened to Take Me on repeat, it was a heavy feeling. Both thinking of the impending separation. Both realizing sepanx was real. Now spoken feelings trapped inside the four corners of the room, trying to break havoc. outside wasn’t any better typhoon was inevitable.

The last night together…

We were being spontaneous trying to spend as much time together as we could, shared cigarette sticks, stolen kisses, secret glances, hammock shenanigans, messy sheets, hint of tequila on your tongue, fingers intertwined, naughty grins, heartfelt giggles, cold hands on my nape, lingering touches, warm breathes, fingers playing with your hair, peck on the nose, fingers tracing your face, natural scent, deep kisses, warm hugs, palpitations, soft whispers – I love you’s. It was heaven on earth!

I blinked once and suddenly pulled back to reality. I swear it felt so real, it all seemed like yesterday only that it was ages ago. I completely zoned out, and for a couple of minutes I am immobile. To then realise that my face is drench with tears. Its still raining, I’m still feeling blue, you’re still not here. I sobbed.

Rain has never been my best friend, for a lost soul like me I dreaded rain only because it ruins plans, and it makes me stay in one place which gives me massive time to think. But rain as previously implied, is both beautiful and depressing. And as much as I want to hate it, I just can’t cause it reminds me of those lovely moments with you. No matter how bitter-sweet those memories were, no matter how much tears I cried every time I look back to it. Those were my precious moments with you, our moments together, we were happy, ecstatic even. We were in love, but just not meant to be.

We love each other that’s for sure, Just may be not the right amount of love. Just may be not the kind of love that is strong enough to move mountains. But I miss you, been missing you, will be missing you, and yano I love you.

Poem : Simply Because You Are, You

I like it when you talk

I like the way you walk

I like it when you comb your hair

Like it more when you stare

I like you when you sing

I like all your blings

I like you when you’re freshly bathe

I like you more when you’re all sweat.

I like you sarcastic remarks

Even like your corny jokes

I salute your generosity

Have always adored your honesty.

I really like it when you sleep

You look like a godly sheep.

There are so many things I like about you

But to cut it short, I like you…

Simply because – you are, YOU๐Ÿ’Ÿ๐Ÿ’Ÿ๐Ÿ’Ÿ

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Poem : A Glimpse Of You

I have long been trying,
To erase this intense feeling.
And now I am learning,
To forget this extreme longing.

The hugs we shared,
Dreams that now tattered.
Soothing words you used to console me,
Are now just memories.

I weep for those times when I think of you,
Knowing that you will never be mine again.
I cherished those memories you and I had made,
Cried for those moments we left behind.

But how can I ever find the courage,
To accept what you are offering…
“Just friends” that’s what you want us to be.
When just a glimpse of you,
And I am Stuck deeper.

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10 Signs Of Head Over Heels In Love

Love is a variety of feelings, states, and attitudes that ranges from interpersonal affection (“I love my mother”) to pleasure (“I loved that meal”). It can refer to an emotion of a strong attraction and personal attachment.[1] It can also be a virtue representing human kindness, compassion, and affectionโ€””the unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another”.[2] It may also describe compassionate and affectionate actions towards other humans, one’s self or animals. – www.wikipedia.com

Love, for me is yet the most difficult term to define, to put meaning to. It is so complicated that it is better left undefined into writings, and let you put your own meaning into it. Coz in the end, what matters most is not how you define it, but how you feel it and how you put action into it. In this article, I will be listing 10 signs of being head-over-heels in love with someone and you will be the judge if you think it is healthy or it belongs to those creepy love stories:

1. When you can’t stop smiling when you think of that person – this is very common to those people who are very in love. For no reason at all, you just can’t help smiling when you think of her/his beautiful face, or the sound of her/his voice.

2. When you can’t sleep just by thinking of that person –  When you’re all alone at night, in your bed and even so, you ar still thinking of her/him. When you’re moments together keep on popping in your mind causing you to be awake more than ever.

3. When your happiness relies on her/ his happiness – it is when you exert extra effort for her/him, to the point of forgetting your own happiness. keeping in mind that her/ his happiness is your happiness. It is somehow called being selfless.

4. When you find peace of mind when you’re together – it is when you feel more at ease and calm knowing that she/ he is near you. And it seems like being with her/ him is right where you belong perfectly. You’re contented of just lying on your bed, holding her/ him close.

5. When you are uneasy when you can’t see her/ him – it feels like your day is not complete without seeing her/him. It’s like your heart is crushed into pieces.

6. When you can’t eat knowing that she/he still haven’t eaten yet – that guilt feeling you feel knowing she/he is starving and you’re  there eating yourself out. And so you decide to wait for her/ him and just eat together.

7. When you’re always uneasy when she/he is hanging-out with friends without you – when you can’t stand the thought of her/ him out with friends on a weekend and you’re left at home doing some boring stuff.

8. When you always want to know her/ his whereabouts – Creepy may it seem but you always want to know everything about her/him. From the food she/he eats, Stuff she/he does, you always wanna know her/ his move.

9. When you can’t stop staring at her/ him while she/he sleeps – even when your partner is sleeping, you watch her/his every breath. You’re amaze by the rising and falling of her/his chest as she/ he breaths. And then you think to yourself how lucky you are for having her/him in your life.

10. When all you ever text with is her/ him – you only have one single contact you text with every day, you only have one contact you call and communicate with. Your heart melts every time you receive a message from her/him, and you always gets excited when your phone rings and you find out she/he is calling.

What ever it is that you feel to your significant others, just always bear in mind, that at the end of the day, you don’t own anybody and although you’re in a relationship with her/him, you don’t get to say how they should live there lives. What you can do is to show them how you feel and hope for the best, that they would love you back.

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Love content credit to : www.wikipedia.com