Love & Hate Relationship With The Rain

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Here I am in my indoor hammock, stuck at home because it’s raining. It couldn’t be more perfectly timed just when I’m feeling blue. So there I was watching droplets of rain as they create ripples on the ground. Not realizing I have been staring blankly at the pouring rain. How could this rain be so beautiful yet so painful inside.

My mind was somewhere else. It was traveling back in time. To that moment when two souls crashed a shed to let the rain pass by. Two happy souls full of unspoken feelings, hopeful for better future. There, we were all smiles sharing stories of our silly childhood years trying to know each other in a deeper perspective. Laughing at how different our culture are.

The rain did stop, but not long enough it started pissing down proper hard and had to crash another shed. Read poems that relates to what we exactly feel; loud laughters and warm smiles, beautiful penetrating stares, I miss those. We were just waiting for the rain to stop, we didn’t realize we were making a bitter- sweet memory then.

Rain never fully stopped, it turned into tiny droplets and we had to drive back. Warm hug from my back, grasping hands on my stomach, life never been this better. The warmth, it felt like home. We were cruising under the droplets of rain, running over 70kph, I never felt so happy. It was a bliss. Then the silly argument involving mispronunciation and childish behaviour. It ruined everything.

Minutes of not talking, minutes turned hours and the rain never stopped. And so was my sadness. Morning came and there you were, with me but just not the same. We were just lying in bed, heart beats in unison, staring blankly at the ceiling, not breaking the mood, as we listened to Take Me on repeat, it was a heavy feeling. Both thinking of the impending separation. Both realizing sepanx was real. Now spoken feelings trapped inside the four corners of the room, trying to break havoc. outside wasn’t any better typhoon was inevitable.

The last night together…

We were being spontaneous trying to spend as much time together as we could, shared cigarette sticks, stolen kisses, secret glances, hammock shenanigans, messy sheets, hint of tequila on your tongue, fingers intertwined, naughty grins, heartfelt giggles, cold hands on my nape, lingering touches, warm breathes, fingers playing with your hair, peck on the nose, fingers tracing your face, natural scent, deep kisses, warm hugs, palpitations, soft whispers – I love you’s. It was heaven on earth!

I blinked once and suddenly pulled back to reality. I swear it felt so real, it all seemed like yesterday only that it was ages ago. I completely zoned out, and for a couple of minutes I am immobile. To then realise that my face is drench with tears. Its still raining, I’m still feeling blue, you’re still not here. I sobbed.

Rain has never been my best friend, for a lost soul like me I dreaded rain only because it ruins plans, and it makes me stay in one place which gives me massive time to think. But rain as previously implied, is both beautiful and depressing. And as much as I want to hate it, I just can’t cause it reminds me of those lovely moments with you. No matter how bitter-sweet those memories were, no matter how much tears I cried every time I look back to it. Those were my precious moments with you, our moments together, we were happy, ecstatic even. We were in love, but just not meant to be.

We love each other that’s for sure, Just may be not the right amount of love. Just may be not the kind of love that is strong enough to move mountains. But I miss you, been missing you, will be missing you, and yano I love you.

From Dogs Perspective : We Are There World

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“Dogs have given us there absolute all. We are the center of their universe. We are the focus of their love and faith and trust. They serve us in return for scraps. It is without a doubt the best deal man has ever made” – Roger Caras –/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/1cf/80396601/files/2014/12/img_3314.jpg All my life I’ve always been very familiar with dogs, they were all around our house all the time. Eventually, I’ve grown to love them, and in return they’ve always shown such loyalty. Growing up I can remember how they always go with my father when he goes to our rice farm and at night, they’re like the night-watcher, guarding the house and the family from unwelcome guests. Although sometimes, they could get very annoying. Barking and barking all the time, but you’ll get used to it eventually. Over those years, I could only remember one dog in particular his name was “Panther”. He was kinda brutal and protective, but he was an effective night-watcher and he was very close to my heart. He lived a long and fulfilling life I supposed. Sad thing was he died due to old age, but I had to move on. Years past and we’ve adopted a lot of dogs, they just come and go really. Not until I finished college when I found a perfect puppy his name is “Hamster”.

/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/1cf/80396601/files/2014/12/img_32651.pngHe is originally owned by my sister’s friend – Rica. When I first met him he was that cute, little, short-tailed, brown puppy – about two months old. He was 6 inches small, he even fitted inside a tiny box. I spent the whole week with him in the city, everyday I would let him drink his milk, I tidied him and tucked him to bed every night. Week after, I took him home with me to my province, my family loved him! The time we spent together were all unforgettable, we would play all day, I fed him and at night he would settle on my tummy and sleep there. When I had to go back to the city, I left his custody to my parents./home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/1cf/80396601/files/2014/12/img_3274-0.jpg He’s been with the family for almost three years now and although we don’t spend more time together, we always have that special connection. Whenever I go home, he always welcomes me at our front gate, wiggling his tail, he’s always so excited to see me, always. I still play with him when I have time. Funny thing is, he’s kinda spoiled and he acts pretty abnormal compared to our other dogs. He’s very tame, he don’t try to wander when our gate was left open, and he likes to take bath a lot! Currently we have more or less six dogs in the province, guess my parents are very fond of adopting dogs.

/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/1cf/80396601/files/2014/12/img_3307-0.jpg Just recently I got myself a puppy for my 25th birthday. A big step for me as I know, looking over and taking care for a dog alone is too big a risk but I did it anyway. All for the love of dogs. So I bought myself a puppy from my colleague (Cynthia), sort of birthday present for myself. A pure breed Maltese, She’s four months old now, she’s covered with all white fur so I named her “Snow”. Sure did, taking care of her is quite a big responsibility. From taking her to the vet for the deworming shots, multivitamins, 5-in-1 shots for parvovirus, and anti-rabies. To walking her daily around the streets, and cleaning her mess. Not to mention providing her with the suitable food, milk, vitamins, dog accessories (toys, leash, clothes). But you know, at the end of the day when I come home from work she’s the first thing I look for some cuddle and I say to myself – “All the efforts paid off, and more”

/home/wpcom/public_html/wp-content/blogs.dir/1cf/80396601/files/2014/12/img_3318.jpg I’ll never get over my fondness for dogs and how cute and loyal they are. Indeed, dogs are man’s best friend.
Special shout-out to Rica for giving me Hamster and to Cynthia for Baby Snow.

You Only Live Once #YOLO : Make The Best Out Of It

“The purpose of life is to live it, to taste, to experience the out most, to reach out eagerly and without fear for newer and richer experience” – Eleanor Roosevelt –

This quote has always kept me going, somehow her words seemed to linger in my mind. Living the moment and experiencing life to the fullest. Taking chances, exploring possibilities. Making the best out of every chances the life has to offer. Being fearless to try anything, anything at all.
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Having these thoughts I always make sure to grab ever opportunity that comes my way, no matter how hard and difficult it is. People may judge me and label me impulsive but I don’t care. This is my life, I won’t let anybody control it. I will collect as many memories I can collect, i will enrich myself with experience and train myself to be wise. When I get older, I don’t want to wonder what could have happened if I did this and that. I don’t want to look back to my younger years and ask myself, What if. I can only live one, and I intend to make the best out of it.

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“I am the master of my fate, I am the captain of my soul” – William Ernest Henley –
True indeed, we are the once that are responsible for ourselves. What we will become is the sum of the choices and risks that we make in our lifetime. We are responsible to enrich ourselves with ideas, memories and experience that worth reminiscing when we get old and no longer capable of doing the things we used to do.

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I may not be that organize and I don’t usually plan my next move, but what I am certain of is that I am always grateful to those chances that life presented me. Some don’t turned out great, some even failed and went straight to the drain, but I know that as I continue my path to life I gathered a lot of experience and memories that somehow made me wiser and wiser. Failure after failure I learned, and I became wiser within.

Live your life with such eagerness to experience and learn, only by then you can say you lived a life to the fullest.

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