My first land border crossing from Costa Rica to Nicaraguawasn’t fun at all, if anything it was a sh*tshow!
We started our travel from Santa Ana, Costa Rica, woke up 4am to get a 4:30am Uber to TICA BUS. Got there too early so they put us to the 5am bus instead of the 6am booking that we had. That was a blessing!
7hours into the trip we finally reached the Costa Rica border – no problem there, went by smoothly. (Not to mention the long queue and with only one immigration they have).
Few meters away, we reached the Nicaraguan border. This was where the shi*tshow started.
First they checked our PCR test result, no problem with that. Then the dreaded immigration. Of course being a PH passport holder I always have issues entering other countries.
For Nicaragua I need a visa on arrival, paid 50 USD to process for it. Took an hour for them to finish. At this point I’m already very anxious, what if they won’t give me the visa and the fact that all the other people from our bus already passed the border wasn’t helping. Few more minutes and finally they stamped my passport. Phew! Relieved!
Now I’m up for another obstacle- Customs. Prior to traveling, we researched about Nicaraguaand found out that drones are illegal in the country and that’s a problem because we have one. Base on our research they would confiscate drones and more other than not, owners were not able to get it back even after paying storage fee when they travel out of Nicaragua.
So day before our trip, what I did was disassembled the drone detached the propellers and scattered the accessories all over my luggage hoping for them to not spot it and I can get through custom smoothly. It turned out to be a very bad idea. I had to open all my luggage take out all the accessories and they took the drone either way.
Ay this point I’m sweating rocks, worried about our bus to Managua, all the passengers must be so pissed at me for delaying them (2 hours had passed since we got to the border), and the drone being confiscated.
What happened next was totally unexpected, Customs people gave us a paper, said we had to go to the annex building and had to get the paper signed. One local started helping us, went to the annex building with Linsey, had the paper signed and lo and behold they handed the drone back to us.
The local person even helped carry our luggages as we ran to the Tica Bus, we thanked him immensely and handed him some money. There’s always a great samaritan wherever we go and we’re always grateful to those people in moments like these.
We’re back on the bus, and it’s apparently the 6am bus that was waiting for us. So at this point I’m totally relived. They didn’t have to wait for us that long at least.
At the end of the day I am grateful for going to the bus station as early as we did, that enabled us to get the 5am bus. It gave us 1 extra hour to cover for the 2 hours delay on my visa processing. Grateful for the immigration officer for being so patient and for trying so hard to understand us despite language barrier. Grateful for the good Samaritan that helped us with our drone snafu. And for the TICABUS for being such a great company. And for Linsey who’s been really patient and collected during the entire delay.
My first land border crossing was a complete sh*tshow and definitely a memorable one. It’s a great story to tell in the future. Bus started rolling 5:20am we arrived in Managua 7:13pm. It was a helluva journey for sure.
SAO PAULO VIRTUAL TOUR – Berrini Ave to GRU Airport (4K). It was quite a long journey and the traffic didn’t make it any better. Took as more than 40 minutes to get into the airport as traffic was quite bad. The view from outside the car was beautiful though. #GirlOnGlobalAdventures#GoGA#SaoPauloVirtualTour
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Today we explore Beco Do Batman in Sao Paulo, Brazil. It is a famous tourist destination because of the artistic mural and graffiti along the street. The nickname for the area is attributed to a graffiti of the DC Comics character Batman which was painted on one of the walls in the 1980s. The graffiti of Beco do Batman is now continually renovated and cared for by local community members. We only had few days to discover Sao Paulo and Beco Do Batman is one of the few places we decided to explore. Come see what we see, as we walk through the street of Beco do Batman in Sao Paulo Brazil during COVID 19.
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How to get there
How to get around Nusa Penida and things you should know
Transportations, Accommodation and Recommendations
Years ago Nusa Penida was on my bucket list of “Places to go to”. Now I’ve ticked it off, and it was an awesome feeling. It wasn’t the easiest to go to though, the drive was terrible. It was long, agonizing hours on a bike driving through very narrow roads. Twists and turns, ups and downs. The journey was so difficult that I almost decided not to continue. But I’ve longed to see it, I have got to see it!
So I continued driving on these awful roads, massive holes, some didn’t even look like roads anymore. It was more like driving through a dried-out river with stones, sand, and mini cliffs. But boy, I’m glad I continued.
Gazing upon it from above was surreal. It was unbelieveable, like I was living in a dream. It was exactly what I expected it to be. Breathtakingly beautiful and undeniably amazing.
It was almost sunset and that made it more appealing, it added drama to the moment and perfection to the view. Soon enough it’s beauty was covered with darkness and I went home with a grateful heart.
How to get there:
From Canggu – take a forty minutes cab to Sanur port
From Padang Bai – East of Bali, take a ferry to Nusa Penida
Sanur port – forty five minutes ferry ride to Nusa Penida
Nusa Penida – rent a motor bike at the port (alternative – Arrange car pick up from your hotel)
How to get around Nusa Penida and things you should know:
Motor bike – is always the go-to vihecle for exploring, it gets you from one place to another easily and quickly. Just always drive safe and use helmets. There were multiple blind curves, the roads are narrow and sometimes there are huge holes in the middle of it. I recommend avoid driving at night.
Car Service (Alternative) – Arrange car through your hotel, they normally offer per day charges depending on the destination you are going. It’s less hassle but could sometimes hard to go around as the roads are very narrow.
Always download offline Google maps. The signal is really weak around the island, it’s always safe to access your map without internet connection. Click here to download:Nusa Penida map
When snorkeling at the Manta point it is to best leave early, it tends to get really crowded on a later time, hence lesser chances of you seeing the manta rays.
On your way to Nusa Penida, I suggest you be at the port early, tide tends to go up , there could be big waves and also the port don’t have any ramp during onboarding. It is a water entry; flip flops are recommended.
Always wear sun protection, I use Garnier SPF50 sunblock lotion and also wear rash gaurd if you have sensitive skin, protection for jellyfish sting.
Transportation, Accomodation and Recommendations:
Gede Driver (+62 813 5366 6692) – Car Drop-off from Canggu to Sanur port
I stayed in Prasi Sunset Bungalows – Tripadvisor , Prasi Sunset Bungalows – Booking.com , Check the link to see reviews and pictures of the place. Definitely worth it. The place was quite nice, friendly, accommodating and warm crew, the stay was pleasant. They made sure that your is experience great. They arranged car pick up upon arrival and departure, motor rental at the hotel, the boat rental for snorkeling with Manta ray among other water activities. And made the ferry reservation from Nusa Penida to Lombok via Padang Baiand the GIli Island . The view from the villa was lovely, overlooking the sea and great vantage point to see Mt. Agung . It has pool, hot water, Wi-Fi, and breakfast included. If you want more details about the place send a message to Wyn Adnyana, he’s the one who’s taking charge of the hotel.
Virgin Beach Restaurant – was the one restaurant that got stuck in my head. I liked there tuna steak not only because I haven’t eaten seafood for the longest time, but because it tasted amazing and the seasoning was perfect. It was a pleasant meal.
They say you’re never too old to start saving and it’s never too late. Of course that’s true but it is always better to start young, right. So what are you waiting for? Start when you’re young and able and together let’s pave our way to that bright future. Start NOW!
When you reached that certain age of maturity and you think about the future, you start on finding ways on how to better reach that goal. And knowing your options are really the best way to get that bright dreams. knowing what to sacrifice is the first step towards that. These days though it’s very common how kids or millennials as they commonly called think and it is a struggle. With all the temptations that are just looming around the corner; newest Gadget, enticing food, promotions, and whatnot. Any moment you’re presented with those “decision making moments” and more often than not people would just give in. But with proper education, motivation and guidance that goal is achievable.
That’s where Sun Life Financial advisors are very good at and that’s where they can help. Come on, reach out now and start climbing your way to financial freedom. Visit Sun Life Financial website, better yet SIGN UP NOW!
Meanwhile, here are some key points I pondered during last weekend’s Sun Life Financial “Lets Have Some FUNds Day”
“Girls Just Wanna Have Some Funds”
Hard work beats talent – never give up until you reach your goal, have that winning attitude. Take action, makes things happen. You may fail but definitely you will learn something.
Explore your talent – when you’re good at something, use it, and improve it. Earn from it, profits are better than wages.
Manage – look for good mentors, invest in yourself, never stop learning.
Protect yourself – invest as early as possible, automatically save a potion of your salary. Have more to have a little bit extra. In times of adversity, you have something to reach out of.
Discern – learn what to and not to spend on, live within your means, live simply. Know what to prioritize.
It’s never wrong to reward yourself when you hit your target.
Surround yourself with like-minded people, make bridges, meet new people, circulate. Learn from peoples experience.
Host Jeff Pe, TV Personality Mia Ali, speaker Kathrynn Dawn Sy and Sun Life Financial Regional Sales Manager Ms. Bernardo open forum after “Girls Just Wanna Have FUNds” talk.
Money Under 30
Always prioritize your future, SAVE! SAVE! SAVE! – no matter how little that is, invest!
Find a goal, focus on it never stop chasing for it
Minimize spending on wants, prioritize on what is necessary.
Never settle on just a salary as your source of income, find ways to earn extra. Start with what you have now – NOW is the right time to make things happen.
Learn as much as you can – maximize your resources, Internet, books, seminars, get in touch with a financial Advisor.
Host Jeff Pe, TV Personality Mia Ali, speaker Karlo Lim and Sun Life Financial Regional Sales Manager Mr. Mike Gustilo open forum after “Money under 30″ talk.
As a traveller that I am and a very practical at that, I have been living in these principle. I am not rich and perhaps will never be but at least I am able to travel when I want to, to where I want to. Because I know my priorities, I focus on it, and work real hard for it. As I ended my day, I’ve seen a glimpse of a better future and considering on exploring my options with Sun Life Financial.
Ill be honest, I dont really go trekking or climb mountains a lot but when I do, I always see to it to make the best out of it. I may not be a professional climber but I do know the basics and I always practice safety.
In this particular adventure thou, I was lucky enough to be trekking with one of the best trekkers there is in Cebu, and ill forever be grateful. For the chance and guidance they provided all through out the experience.
I must say, I was pretty much psyched to be climbing one of the highest mountain peak in Cebu and quite scared at the same time. But it all turned out fine, we may had experienced some bumps but nothing much that we cant handle and the event was a big success. Sure we do have some points to consider improving but overall it was an experience of a lifetime.
Mt. Kapayas Itinerary
4pm: Van Transfer to Compostela from Ayala terminal
5pm: Arrival at the beach. Set up tents, hommock and
Cook food for dinner
7- 9pm: LNT Workshop
9-11pm: Last and Light Backpacking
11.15pm: Awarding of Certificates
11.30pm: Lights Off
4.30am: Wake up call prepare breakfast per group.
6.00am: Enroute to Catmon
6.45am: Meet the Driver with our Permit.
Registration at Police Office. Last buy at 7-11 7.00am: Motorcycle ride to Jump off
8.00am: Jump Off, meet the guide and prayer and
Start the trek.
11.00am: Peak, pictures
12.30pm: Lunch, rest
2.30pm: Enroute to Falls
5.30pm: Enroute back to Cebu
The trail started easy, it was just like walking in the park but it gotten really hard with our backpacks and the heat of the sun. That’s where the lightbacking comes in places, never really bring stuff that aren’t necessary it’ll serve as a deadweight. (Not a big idea to bring lots of stuff).
The summit thou, it took my breath away! Quite literally but its really nice to have such exeperience. Some peaks are easy to reach, this one is not one of them. You have to climb your way up through the stone wall (cliff if not with trees that surrounds it). It was really challenging and nerve wrecking. But once I get to the top, it was really worth it. The view was so amazing, 360 degree view of the north, I was in awed for a couple of minutes. Not everybody gets to see this amazing creation, right at that moment I felt really blessed and humbled, and realized how such small space I occupy in this big big world. But that specific moment, I was on top of it, and I couldn’t be anymore prouder.
A thank you note for someone dear from someone awesome. With overflowing love, admiration, and pocket full of hope for better 2018…
Before this year ends for me in this part of the world, I just wanna say thank you for coming into my life. In a very short time you manage to creep into my heart, and stay in it, which made you a vital part of my life. I may have known you for just over a month but it seems like I’ve known you my whole life. And each day that we’re apart is like years to me. How could time be so fast when we were together, and move too slow when we’re apart. I miss you so much, it hurts. I miss the comfort of your hugs that feels like home. I miss the taste of your lips when it touches mine. I miss your gentle touch, your soft skin. I miss the sound of your laugh, and the happiness it makes me feel when Im the reason of it. I miss staring into your eyes and seeing my future in it. But what I miss most is the me when I’m with you, and the moments when we were together.
I can still remember the first time I laid my eyes on you, how you look so pretty even when you were so sweaty. I remember how I was dumbfounded when I heard your voice. I remember feeling awful when you told me any normal person would wait for someone at the door rather than sitting comfortably inside, I remember laughing at you when you talked how you walked to and fro just to look for the cafe. I remember acting so composed while deep inside i felt so worried if you would like me too. I remember the first time I touched your arms when we were walking making it so subtle not to make you uncomfortable. I remember the first laugh we shared over the word “subjack”. I remember how anxious I was while playing pool with you. I remember our time at the bar. I remember how I tried so hard not to kiss you, but gave in eventually. I remember our first night at the hotel, and how embarrassed i was morning after for bring you into that hotel but dont regret doing it. I remember our laughs in Bohol, our first ride, our story telling under the shed whilst waiting for the rain to stop. I remember every moment together like it was facking yesterday. I fucking miss US, and although we are apart right now, the thought of us seeing each other this 2018 keeps me hoping for even bigger year for us. So please lets be strong together, we will be fine. We should be fine. Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you for being the highlight of my 2017. I love you so much, 2018 gonna be better.
So much to be thankful for the year that has been and a lot to look forward to for 2018, it’s going to be epic.
Do you have any idea how much I love you? I bet you don’t because while I was busy loving you, you were silently still loving her.
I was stupid, was blinded by the strong emotion I felt for you. I was once again DOOMED! But it was okay, cause I was hopeful and hope springs eternal they say. I hoped my effort will eventually pay off, but it didn’t. Cause at the end, you chose her and you left me broken. It was devastating, it ruined me. I thought I have mastered the art of moving on but I was wrong. The heartache seemed vaguely familiar and again I started my healing process. In every process, there are certain stages you have to go through and they are always hard and draining. The pain was excruciating, it was as if my heart was stabbed over and over again. The hurt demanded my attention it wrapped my whole being for months, it sucked the life out of me.
My stubborn self just won’t stop, months passed but I would still find myself wishing for you to come back, but to no avail, because you love her. And when it’s the love you don’t have any control over it, I can’t blame you I can only blame myself. I used to stay up all night and just stare blankly at the ceiling wondering what could have been but I’m done with it now. Done with denial, anger, bargaining, depression and I am down to my last stage, acceptance.
Truth be told sometimes I’d rather sleep than stay awake, cause in my dreams there’s still ME and YOU. In my dreams, I am your one and only, not just the third party. There, I see your smiles that are only meant for me. There, I can still feel your touch, fingers intertwined, and your warm lips on mine. But now on heavy heart, I must let go, so I can finally be set free from the prison cell that I put myself into when I started loving you. Now what is left of me is the memories of what used to be and what it taught me.
For the ME that loves YOU, I will wait for the day when your scent wears off when the bruise heals, and my shattered heart starts to beat again.
And for the YOU who loves HER, be happy because that is what I’ve always wanted you to be, even if it’s not with me.
I normally get involve in a pre-planned, open-invite group travels. Not because I have no one to go and travel with but because it allowed me to meet new people and make new friends. It allowed me to listen to new life stories and struggles. It gave me a sense of belongingness. Being with a group of people who doesn’t know who I am, gave me that strong feeling of starting a fresh. Like I can be a different person, a better version of myself.
During my most recent travel, my wandering feet and my curious self led me to Carnaza Island, honestly I did not put any attention when I was invited by my friend – Dilon about this Island, in fact it was the first time I heard about it. Only when I started researching and reading blogs about it did I know that Carnaza Island is part of Daan Bantayan in the north. My curiosity grew even bigger when I saw how picturesque the island was with its beautiful landscape and turquoise clear water.
ITINERARY for CARNAZA ISLAND
1st Day October 29, 2017 * 3am – meeting place (Hi way Jollibee Mandaue) * 4am – depart Van going to Tapilon Port * 7am – Tapilon port, depart to going to Carnaza * 9am – Carnaza Island, tour around the island * 10am- Camp Site, Kang Elena Beach Carnaza * 12nn – Lunch * 1pm – Travel with a Purpose Activity: Repainting * Afternoon: Enjoy the beach * You can walk and tour the island for your photoshoots! * Evening: Catch the Beautiful Sunset of the Island * Socials at night time * Overnight
2nd Day October 30, 2017 * 6am – Catch the Amazing Sunrise of the Island * 7am – Breakfast/Better cook your lunch before we leave, lunch will be at Lamanok Island * 9am- depart going to Lamanok Island * 10am – enjoy the sandbar and the island * 12nn lunch * 1pm – depart going to Gato Island then head back to Tapilon * 3pm – Tapilon Port * 4pm – Head Back to the City
How To Get There (Alternate)
>> Take a bus from North Bus Terminal via Maya port >> Get off at Tapilon port >> Ride a boat to Carnaza Island,
Oct 29, 2017 – right after my night shift, I went straight to our meeting place. And there my fellow dream chasers awaits. We were strangers but we had a common purpose and that was enough to for us to be comfortable with each other. In that 3-hour road trip to the north of Cebu, no one started any conversation, we hardly even look at each other. But the silence was perfect only because it was still dawn. The the morning came and we finally arrived to our first stop, Tapilon port where we embarked into a boat to our final destination – Carnaza Island .
So there we were, 15 people oozing with excitement. At this point we were already feeling a little bit more at ease with each, made some small talks, took some photos, all excited to talk about our expectations about the journey in hand. Hours past and we can finally see the white sand from afar, the island did not disappoint it surely have an amazing landscape.
As soon as the boat dropped its anchor, I thought to myself, I had to get this place dissected. I wasn’t able to contain myself, I had to explore the place. The view was breath taking, the clear blue water seemed so inviting, but dipping in the water was not part of the plan for this quick stop. With much eagerness I quickly disembarked from the boat and looked for a perfect spots to take photos of the landscape. It was amazing, the cliffs and the stone formation near the shore added more magic to the place, it was pure heaven.
I was able to find a small cave opening in one side of the mountain in the island and it was a perfect spot to take photos. I indulged myself for a bit to appreciate the beauty in front me and then moved forward to where my fellow travelers were. They were busy taking pictures of themselves, on top of the a small mountain overlooking the twin beach where a small fishing village resides. No wonder my fellow traveler hurried to this spot, it has a 360 view of the beach as well as the open water. And it was breathtaking, I took some awful lot time just exploring the mountain top. The cliffs were so jaw-dropping, as if it was enticing me to jump off to the turquoise water.
Anyhow, I had this fellow traveler whom I partnered with so someone can take pictures of me and vice versa, and we just clicked. We explored the rest of the mountain together and took some cool picture of each other, he completed my travel essentials list – Photo buddy🙂.
In the scorching heat of the sun, we finally decided to head back to the boat. We lost track of time, all the other travelers were already waiting for us when we got there. As soon as we settled in the boat, the boatmen then maneuvered the boat to our campsite, Kang Elena Cove. It took us approximately 15 minutes to get there. The cove was a perfect location for a campsite. There were no houses nearby, there were newly built boats on works for paint jobs though, but aside from that the cove was literally isolated. Its as if we owned the entire cove. As soon as I touched my feet on the sand I wasted no time, I hurriedly looked for a suitable place tie my hammock and pitch my tent.
Moments passed and each of us was already settled in our private space, and then lunch time came. My friend, who’s the leader of this little venture already contacted someone from the island to prepare seafoods for our lunch. They prepared crabs for us, back in Twin Beach, we bumped into a local fisherman with fresh caught squid. We bought all of them and our boatmen grilled them in the cove. Some of the travelers brought some food for lunch as well, and I must say it was a sumptuous lunch. At this point, we were getting more and more at ease with each other. As time passed we learned more things about each other. We discovered we had lots of stuff in common. We didn’t even care how long we were sitting there – eating, all we know is that its was fun sharing the food with these 15 strangers, and definitely fun knowing them little by little.
Afternoon came and we were all full, feeling lazy to do anything I laid in my hammock, and just enjoyed the moment. Some of my fellow traveler needed to go to the cemetery for some paint job for Dilon’s deceased friend’s wake. I opted to stay in the campsite with some other people. With nothing else to do we decided to start socializing, hence libation. So there we were (8 not so strangers anymore) in the grass squatting, sharing life stories while drinks on hand. It’s always my favorite part, learning life experiences, struggles and successes. There’s not a single moment in my life when I feel bored socializing, it’s always fun. The days still young, all 8 of us already tipsy but full of life. The time seemed too slow in this part of the world, I swear to God the time seemed three times slower not that we were complaining though.
Sunset finally came and we transferred to the beach front, all of us under influence of alcohol but all aware of the beautiful sunset. We stared blankly at the sunset as it changed the colors of the sky, it was a pure bliss. One of the most beautiful sunset I ever witnessed in my existence. And then night came and it was all darkness in the cove, but we didn’t mind, we know this was what we signed up for. The rest of the group finally came back and joined us at the beach, we then made bonfire to keep us warm while we continued sharing stories. The bigger the group, the more fun it became. We ate dinner in darkness with only a few flashlights, the dinner was uneventful.
Libation ended at 11pm, but that’s after we put our speaker on high volume and sang our hearts out along with the music. One of us even started dancing her signature crab dance😂. It was pure fun! When the rest of them settled in their tents, we opted to stay behind and enjoyed the warmth of the evening water, gazed into the star-filled sky, spent another hour there and then finally settled in my hammock.
I laid in my hammock underneath the sea of stars, it was heaven on earth. I laid there while staring at the sky contemplating of the day that has been. Spending the entire day in the island with all these random people was amazing, people with the same mindset as mine. People who, like me – just wanna have a good time. And in that one day, I felt closer to them even more than with the people I encountered on a daily basis. Its both weird and amazing how you can be so at ease with people you just met less than 24 hours ago. It must be because we shared the same passion for traveling.
Mornings are the best during camping, everybody’s busy with morning chores prepping food and stuff. And of course early morning dip. Right after we ate our breakfast, all of us started heading to the beach and enjoyed our remaining hours in the cove. There’s never a dull moment when you’re with your fellow crazies. Any moment somebody would crack a joke and even if it’s not that hilarious hearing people laugh would make you laugh out loud as well. Our final day begun just like that.
Another hour came and we finally left the cove and it was rather a rough ride to our next stop, LaManoc Island. Approximately 45 minutes boat right to this beautiful island. At this point, we were all excited for yet another paradise, as if we hadn’t spent the last 24 hours devouring Kang Elena cove. To our defense though, the island is pretty awesome it has this beautiful landscape and picturesque surroundings. It has this long white sandbar that connects two island together allowing us to explore the other adjacent island. It was perfect, the sun was on its peak, the water so clear and I can’t get enough of the of the picture-perfect white sandbar. In that island, 15 souls lost themselves. 15 wanderers was enchanted by the beauty, that was LaManoc Island. 15 strangers turned friends made and left memories nobody can take away from us.
And just like that, we ended our 2-day trip to Carnaza. At the end of that trip I can only say 2 things as conclusions; 1) We went there as 15 complete strangers, we went our separate ways as friends 2) We will definitely find our way back to Carnaza Island, it may not be together but for sure that trip won’t be the last time I’ll be seeing the island. LaManoc island is exceptional, there is something about the island that kept our wanderlust burning. It kept us thinking of more travels to come.
I was cleaning my room when i saw a shoe box of our memories, i wonder if we ever bump into each other again, should i ask you “do you remember how crazy we were for each other?” how i adored the natural glow in your skin and the love in your eyes every time i said your name and kissed your cheeks, that chubby cheeks, i remembered. all i ever wanted was to hold your hand every single minute of ever single day even when i was working i imagined myself holding your hands. your hands that held my lungs my bones my heart.. every piece of my living. i lived for you. remember? how i grew into you and you grew into me. remember? you were like my favorite sweater i never checked if you fit i just wore you every single day and pretended you look so good on me. remember our planned adventures? that no matter how life threatening it could be as long as there’s you and me we’d cheat death and breathe for each other. and once upon a time i use to draw one thousand maps on your back while you’re asleep and each map will lead us back home to each other but now that home smells like burning and im sill learning how not smell you in every cup of coffee and in every vanilla scented room. i still remember you when im making cheesecakes or making business plans. i still needed you to be there for me and call me when things get so cranky. but in the end you held my tears like they were salt on your wounds, promises not kept, every time i wept it’s for everything, between our first kiss and me scrapping your shattered love songs on the floor sobbing, begging please.. we got this let’s just give it one more chance. we can get through this. if you don’t believe me look at the scars i carved on my own skin to remind me that blood is nothing compared to heartbreak. but you looked at me loveless and with shotgun words you killed me there. i learned that when your heart broke faster than the speeding bullet it hurts a whole lot more than a hundred bombs exploding. and if id ever be given a chance to tell how i felt id tell you i love you and mean it for the very last time. and with and smile on my face and the love in my heart i wish you all the happiness i could never give. #letter #forgivemefordoingthis