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Nusa Penida, Indonesia – A Travel Guide To A perfect Gateaway

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You were a dream once, now you’re a memory.

Nusa Penida, Indonesia is an island in the southeastern side of Bali separated by Badung Strait . It is a part of district of Klungkung Regency that includes the neighbouring small island of Nusa Lembongan .


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SEE DETAILS AND LINKS BELOW FOR TRAVEL GUIDES:

  • How to get there
  • How to get around Nusa Penida and things you should know
  • Transportations, Accommodation and Recommendations
  • Expenses breakdown

Years ago Nusa Penida was on my bucket list of “Places to go to”. Now I’ve ticked it off, and it was an awesome feeling. It wasn’t the easiest to go to though, the drive was terrible. It was long, agonizing hours on a bike driving through very narrow roads. Twists and turns, ups and downs. The journey was so difficult that I almost decided not to continue. But I’ve longed to see it, I have got to see it!

So I continued driving on these awful roads, massive holes, some didn’t even look like roads anymore.  It was more like driving through a dried-out river with stones, sand, and mini cliffs. But boy, I’m glad I continued.

Oh the view was great from up here. And the sunset, it was just perfect.

Gazing upon it from above was surreal. It was unbelieveable, like I was living in a dream. It was exactly what I expected it to be. Breathtakingly beautiful and undeniably amazing.

It was almost sunset and that made it more appealing, it added drama to the moment and perfection to the view. Soon enough it’s beauty was covered with darkness and I went home with a grateful heart.

Diamond beach as seen from above. I just can’t get
enough of this paradise

How to get there:

  • From Canggu  – take a forty minutes cab to Sanur port
  • From Padang Bai – East of Bali, take a ferry to Nusa Penida
  • Sanur port – forty five minutes ferry ride to Nusa Penida
  • Nusa Penida – rent a motor bike at the port (alternative – Arrange car pick up from your hotel)
Steep blue stairs on the side of the cliff leading
to Peguyangan Waterfall.
I lost count of how many stairs there were, I am pretty sure though it is over 500. That was the time I sat, tongue out. I am out of shape.

How to get around Nusa Penida and things you should know:

  • Motor bike – is always the go-to vihecle for exploring, it gets you from one place to another easily and quickly. Just always drive safe and use helmets. There were multiple blind curves, the roads are narrow and sometimes there are huge holes in the middle of it. I recommend avoid driving at night.
  • Car Service (Alternative) – Arrange car through your hotel, they normally offer per day charges depending on the destination you are going. It’s less hassle but could sometimes hard to go around as the roads are very narrow.
  • Always download offline Google maps. The signal is really weak around the island, it’s always safe to access your map without internet connection. Click here to download: Nusa Penida map
  • When snorkeling at the Manta point it is to best leave early, it tends to get really crowded on a later time, hence lesser chances of you seeing the manta rays.
  • On your way to Nusa Penida, I suggest you be at the port early, tide tends to go up , there could be big waves and also the port don’t have any ramp during onboarding. It is a water entry; flip flops are recommended.
  • Always wear sun protection, I use Garnier SPF50 sunblock lotion and also wear rash gaurd if you have sensitive skin, protection for jellyfish sting.
Manta rays frequent Manta bay but it’s not really everyday.
Luckily I was one of the lucky few.

Transportation, Accomodation and Recommendations:

  • Gede Driver (+62 813 5366 6692) – Car Drop-off from Canggu to Sanur port
  • Check out these website when booking ferry ticket Sanur-Nusa Penida & vice versa; Marlin Fast Boat, Crown Fast Cruises, Sugriwa Express , 12Go , the latter one has the Cheapest fare compared to booking it directly to the ferry company.
  • I stayed in Prasi Sunset Bungalows – Tripadvisor , Prasi Sunset Bungalows – Booking.com , Check the link to see reviews and pictures of the place. Definitely worth it. The place was quite nice, friendly, accommodating and warm crew, the stay was pleasant. They made sure that your is experience great. They arranged car pick up upon arrival and departure, motor rental at the hotel, the boat rental for snorkeling with Manta ray among other water activities. And made the ferry reservation from Nusa Penida to Lombok via Padang Bai and the GIli Island . The view from the villa was lovely, overlooking the sea and great vantage point to see Mt. Agung .  It has pool, hot water, Wi-Fi, and breakfast included. If you want more details about the place send a message to Wyn Adnyana , he’s the one who’s taking charge of the hotel.
  • Virgin Beach Restaurant – was the one restaurant that got stuck in my head. I liked there tuna steak not only because I haven’t eaten seafood for the longest time, but because it tasted amazing and the seasoning was perfect. It was a pleasant meal.
Mt. Ugong as seen from Banah point

Expenses Breakdown:

  • 200k IDR – Car Canggu to Sanur port
  • 270k IDR – Ferry ticket booked online (cheaper compared to booking direct)
  • 100k IDR – Car pick up by Hotel
  • 640K IDR – Hotel accommodation for two nights
  • 80K IDR – Motor bike rental at the hotel
  • 900K IDR – Private Boat rental for Snorkeling arranged by hotel 350K IDR – boat fee per person if joining a group (Alternative)
  • 25K IDR – Entrance Peguyangan Falls
  • 10K IDR – Entrance Diamond Beach
  • 5K IDR – Entrance kilingkling Beach (Trex)
  • 60K IDR – Petrol Refill
  • 100k IDR – Car drop-off to pier arranged by hotel
  • 400K IDR – Ferry from Nusa Penida to Lombok

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Now Is the Time To Secure Your Future With Sun Life Financial

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They say you’re never too old to start saving and it’s never too late. Of course that’s true but it is always better to start young, right. So what are you waiting for? Start when you’re young and able and together let’s pave our way to that bright future. Start NOW!

When you reached that certain age of maturity and you think about the future, you start on finding ways on how to better reach that goal. And knowing your options are really the best way to get that bright dreams. knowing what to sacrifice is the first step towards that. These days though it’s very common how kids or millennials as they commonly called think and it is a struggle. With all the temptations that are just looming around the corner; newest Gadget, enticing food, promotions, and whatnot. Any moment you’re presented with those “decision making moments” and more often than not people would just give in. But with proper education, motivation and guidance that goal is achievable.

That’s where Sun Life Financial advisors are very good at and that’s where they can help. Come on, reach out now and start climbing your way to financial freedom. Visit Sun Life Financial website, better yet SIGN UP NOW!

Meanwhile, here are some key points I pondered during last weekend’s Sun Life Financial “Lets Have Some FUNds Day”

“Girls Just Wanna Have Some Funds”

  • Hard work beats talent – never give up until you reach your goal, have that winning attitude. Take action, makes things happen. You may fail but definitely you will learn something.
  • Explore your talent – when you’re good at something, use it, and improve it. Earn from it, profits are better than wages.
  • Manage – look for good mentors, invest in yourself, never stop learning.
  • Protect yourself – invest as early as possible, automatically save a potion of your salary. Have more to have a little bit extra. In times of adversity, you have something to reach out of.
  • Discern – learn what to and not to spend on, live within your means, live simply. Know what to prioritize.
  • It’s never wrong to reward yourself when you hit your target.
  • Surround yourself with like-minded people, make bridges, meet new people, circulate. Learn from peoples experience.

Host Jeff Pe, TV Personality Mia Ali, speaker Kathrynn Dawn Sy and Sun Life Financial Regional Sales Manager Ms. Bernardo open forum after “Girls Just Wanna Have FUNds” talk.

Money Under 30

  • Always prioritize your future, SAVE! SAVE! SAVE! – no matter how little that is, invest!
  • Find a goal, focus on it never stop chasing for it
  • Minimize spending on wants, prioritize on what is necessary.
  • Never settle on just a salary as your source of income, find ways to earn extra. Start with what you have now – NOW is the right time to make things happen.
  • Learn as much as you can – maximize your resources, Internet, books, seminars, get in touch with a financial Advisor.

Host Jeff Pe, TV Personality Mia Ali, speaker Karlo Lim and Sun Life Financial Regional Sales Manager Mr. Mike Gustilo open forum after “Money under 30″ talk.

Personal take:

As a traveller that I am and a very practical at that, I have been living in these principle. I am not rich and perhaps will never be but at least I am able to travel when I want to, to where I want to. Because I know my priorities, I focus on it, and work real hard for it. As I ended my day, I’ve seen a glimpse of a better future and considering on exploring my options with Sun Life Financial.

Let’s start to have some FUNDs together!!!!

Mount Kapayas: You Took My Breath Away

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Ill be honest, I dont really go trekking or climb mountains a lot but when I do, I always see to it to make the best out of it. I may not be a professional climber but I do know the basics and I always practice safety.

In this particular adventure thou, I was lucky enough to be trekking with one of the best trekkers there is in Cebu, and ill forever be grateful. For the chance and guidance they provided all through out the experience.

I must say, I was pretty much psyched to be climbing one of the highest mountain peak in Cebu and quite scared at the same time. But it all turned out fine, we may had experienced some bumps but nothing much that we cant handle and the event was a big success. Sure we do have some points to consider improving but overall it was an experience of a lifetime.

Mt. Kapayas Itinerary

Saturday

4pm: Van Transfer to Compostela from Ayala terminal

5pm: Arrival at the beach. Set up tents, hommock and

Cook food for dinner

6pm: Dinner

7- 9pm: LNT Workshop

9-11pm: Last and Light Backpacking

11.15pm: Awarding of Certificates

11.30pm: Lights Off

SUNDAY:

4.30am: Wake up call prepare breakfast per group.

6.00am: Enroute to Catmon

6.45am: Meet the Driver with our Permit.

Registration at Police Office. Last buy at 7-11 7.00am: Motorcycle ride to Jump off

8.00am: Jump Off, meet the guide and prayer and

Start the trek.

11.00am: Peak, pictures

12.30pm: Lunch, rest

1.30pm: Decend

2.30pm: Enroute to Falls

5.30pm: Enroute back to Cebu

The trail started easy, it was just like walking in the park but it gotten really hard with our backpacks and the heat of the sun. That’s where the lightbacking comes in places, never really bring stuff that aren’t necessary it’ll serve as a deadweight. (Not a big idea to bring lots of stuff).

The summit thou, it took my breath away! Quite literally but its really nice to have such exeperience. Some peaks are easy to reach, this one is not one of them. You have to climb your way up through the stone wall (cliff if not with trees that surrounds it). It was really challenging and nerve wrecking. But once I get to the top, it was really worth it. The view was so amazing, 360 degree view of the north, I was in awed for a couple of minutes. Not everybody gets to see this amazing creation, right at that moment I felt really blessed and humbled, and realized how such small space I occupy in this big big world. But that specific moment, I was on top of it, and I couldn’t be anymore prouder.

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A Thank You Note: For You With Love

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December 31, 2017 (11:59PM)

A thank you note for someone dear from someone awesome. With overflowing love, admiration, and pocket full of hope for better 2018…

Before this year ends for me in this part of the world, I just wanna say thank you for coming into my life. In a very short time you manage to creep into my heart, and stay in it, which made you a vital part of my life. I may have known you for just over a month but it seems like I’ve known you my whole life. And each day that we’re apart is like years to me. How could time be so fast when we were together, and move too slow when we’re apart. I miss you so much, it hurts. I miss the comfort of your hugs that feels like home. I miss the taste of your lips when it touches mine. I miss your gentle touch, your soft skin. I miss the sound of your laugh, and the happiness it makes me feel when Im the reason of it. I miss staring into your eyes and seeing my future in it. But what I miss most is the me when I’m with you, and the moments when we were together.

I can still remember the first time I laid my eyes on you, how you look so pretty even when you were so sweaty. I remember how I was dumbfounded when I heard your voice. I remember feeling awful when you told me any normal person would wait for someone at the door rather than sitting comfortably inside, I remember laughing at you when you talked how you walked to and fro just to look for the cafe. I remember acting so composed while deep inside i felt so worried if you would like me too. I remember the first time I touched your arms when we were walking making it so subtle not to make you uncomfortable. I remember the first laugh we shared over the word “subjack”. I remember how anxious I was while playing pool with you. I remember our time at the bar. I remember how I tried so hard not to kiss you, but gave in eventually. I remember our first night at the hotel, and how embarrassed i was morning after for bring you into that hotel but dont regret doing it. I remember our laughs in Bohol, our first ride, our story telling under the shed whilst waiting for the rain to stop. I remember every moment together like it was facking yesterday. I fucking miss US, and although we are apart right now, the thought of us seeing each other this 2018 keeps me hoping for even bigger year for us. So please lets be strong together, we will be fine. We should be fine. Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you for being the highlight of my 2017. I love you so much, 2018 gonna be better.

So much to be thankful for the year that has been and a lot to look forward to for 2018, it’s going to be epic.

For The YOU Who Loves HER & The ME That Loves YOU

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Do you have any idea how much I love you? I bet you don’t because while I was busy loving you, you were silently still loving her.

I was stupid, was blinded by the strong emotion I felt for you. I was once again DOOMED! But it was okay, cause I was hopeful and hope springs eternal they say. I hoped my effort will eventually pay off, but it didn’t. Cause at the end, you chose her and you left me broken. It was devastating, it ruined me. I thought I have mastered the art of moving on but I was wrong. The heartache seemed vaguely familiar and again I started my healing process. In every process, there are certain stages you have to go through and they are always hard and draining. The pain was excruciating, it was as if my heart was stabbed over and over again. The hurt demanded my attention it wrapped my whole being for months, it sucked the life out of me.

My stubborn self just won’t stop, months passed but I would still find myself wishing for you to come back, but to no avail, because you love her. And when it’s the love you don’t have any control over it, I can’t blame you I can only blame myself. I used to stay up all night and just stare blankly at the ceiling wondering what could have been but I’m done with it now. Done with denial, anger, bargaining, depression and I am down to my last stage, acceptance.

Truth be told sometimes I’d rather sleep than stay awake, cause in my dreams there’s still ME and YOU. In my dreams, I am your one and only, not just the third party. There, I see your smiles that are only meant for me. There, I can still feel your touch, fingers intertwined, and your warm lips on mine. But now on heavy heart, I must let go, so I can finally be set free from the prison cell that I put myself into when I started loving you. Now what is left of me is the memories of what used to be and what it taught me.

For the ME that loves YOU, I will wait for the day when your scent wears off when the bruise heals, and my shattered heart starts to beat again.

And for the YOU who loves HER, be happy because that is what I’ve always wanted you to be, even if it’s not with me.

Carnaza Island: Travel guide and experience

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I normally involve myself in a pre-planned open-invite group travels, not because I have no one to go and travel with but because it allows me to meet new people and make friends with them. It allows me to listen to new life stories and struggles, it gives me some sense of belonging, being with a group of people who doesn’t know who you are gives me that strong feeling of starting a fresh. Like I can be a different person, a better version of me.

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 Lamanok island on the background

During my most recent travel, my wandering feet and my curious self led me to Carnaza Island, honestly i did not put any attention when I was invited by my fellow traveler about this Island, in fact twas the first time i heard about it. Only when i started researching and reading blogs about it did i know that Carnaza Island is part of Daan Bantayan in the north. My curiosity grew bigger when I saw how picturesque the island was with its beautiful landscape and turquoise clear water.

Undeniably Carnaza is a lovely island that is yet to be famous

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ITINERARY for CARNAZA ISLAND
OCT 29-30. 2017
(Budget 1k for transpo)
1st Day
3am – meeting place (Hi way Jollibee Mandaue)
4am – depart Van going to Tapilon Port
7am – Tapilon port, depart to going to Carnaza
9am – Carnaza Island, tour around the island
10am- Camp Site, Kang Elena Beach Carnaza
12nn – Lunch
1pm – Travel with a Purpose Activity: Repainting

Afternoon: Enjoy the beach
You can walk and tour the island for your photoshoots!
Evening: Catch the Beautiful Sunset of the Island
Socials at night time
Overnight

2nd Day
Catch the Amazing Sunrise of the Island
Breakfast/Better cook your lunch before we leave, lunch will be at Lamanok Island

9am- depart going toLamanok Island
10am – enjoy the sandbar and the island
12nn lunch
1pm – depart going to Gato Island then head back to Tapilon
3-4pm – Tapilon Port
4pm – Head Back to the City

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How To Get There (Alternate):

** Take a bus from North Bus Terminal via Maya port
** Get off at Tapilon port
** Ride a boat to Carnaza Island,

Oct 29, 2017 right after my night shift, I went straight ahead to our meeting place. And there my fellow dream chasers awaits, we were strangers but we had a common purpose and that was enough to for us to be comfortable with each other. In that 3-hour road trip to the north we rarely talk with each other we hardly even look at each other, but the silence was perfect only because it was still dawn. The the morning came And we finally arrived to our first stop, Tapilon port where we embarked into a boat to our final destination – Carnaza Island .

Every where you look, you’ll find a picture perfect view

So there we were, 15 people oozing with excitement. At this point we were already feeling a little bit more at ease with each, made some small talks, took some photos, all excited to talk about expectations about the journey in hand. Hours past and we can finally see the white sand from afar, the island did not disappoint it surely have amazing landscape.

First order of business- Twin beach Carnaza Island

As soon as the boat dropped its anchor, I thought to myself, I had to get this place dissected. I wasn’t able to contain myself I had to explore the place. The view was breath taking, the clear blue water seemed so inviting, but dipping in the water was not part of the plan for this quick stop. With much eagerness i quickly disembarked from the boat and looked for a perfect spots to take photos of the place. It was amazing, the cliffs and the stone formation near the shore added more magic to the place it was pure heaven. I was able to find this small cave in one of the mountain in the island and it was a perfect spot to take photos. I indulge myself for a bit to appreciate the beauty in front me and then move forward to where my fellow travelers were busy taking pictures of themselves. It was a small mountain overlooking the twin beach where small fishing village resides. No wonder my fellow traveller hurried to this spot, it has a 360 view of the beach as well as the open water. And it was breathtaking, i took some awful lot time just exploring the mountain top. The cliffs were so jaw-dropping its as if its enticing me jump off it straight to the turquoise water. Anyhow, I had this fellow traveler whom I partnered with so someone can take pictures of me and vice versa, and we just clicked. We explored the rest of the mountain together and took some cool picture of each other, he completed my travel essentials. Photo buddy🙂.

The water so inviting, the sky so blue

In the scorching heat of the sun we finally decided to head back to the boat. we lost track of time, all the other travelers were already waiting for us when we got there. As soon as we settled in the boat, the boatmen then maneuvered the boat to our campsite, Kang Elena Cove. It took us approximately 15mins to get there, the cove was a perfect location for a campsite. There were no houses nearby, there were newly built boats on works for paint jobs though, but aside from that the cove is literally isolated. Its as if we own the entire cove. As soon as I touched my feet on the sand I wasted no time, I hurriedly looked for a suitable place tie my hammock and pitch my tent.

The view so invitinng I can’t help but take a picture of it

Moments passed and each of us was already settled in our private space, and then lunch time came. My friend, who’s the leader of this little venture already contacted someone from the island to prepare seafoods for our lunch they prepared crabs for us, back in twin lake we bumped into a local fisherman a fresh caught squids we bought that grilled them in the cove. Some of the travelers brought some food for lunch as well, and i must say it was a sumptuous lunch. At this point, were getting more and more at ease with each other. As time passes we learn more things about each other, we discovered we have lots of stuff in common. We didn’t even care how long we were sitting there eating, all we know is that its was fun sharing the food with these 13 strangers, and definitely fun knowing them little by little.

Sea foods bonanza
booddle fight ala Carnaza island

Afternoon came and we were all full, feeling lazy to do anything I lay in my hammock just enjoying the moment. Some of my fellow traveler needed to go to the cemetery for some paint job for Dilon’s deceased friend’s wake. I opted to stay together with some other people. With nothing else to do we decided to start socializing, hence libation. So there we were, 8 not so strangers anymore, in the grass squatting, sharing life stories while drinks on hand. Its always my favorite part, learning life experiences, struggles and successes. There’s no single moment in my life when I feel bored socializing, it’s always fun. The days still young, all 8 of us already tipsy but full of life. The time seemed too slow in this part of the world, I swear to God the time seemed three times slower not that were complaining though.

Hammock by the beach is always the dream life. Time seems so slow, living the dream

Sunset finally came and we transferred to the beach front, all of us under influence of alcohol but all conscious we stared blankly at the sunset as it changes the colors of the sky, it was pure bliss. One of the most beautiful sunset I ever witnessed in my existence. And then night came and it was all darkness in the cove, but we didn’t mind we know this was what we signed up for. The rest of the group finally came back and joined us at the beach, we then made bonfire to keep us warm while we continued sharing stories. The bigger the group, the more fun it became. Libation ended at 11pm, but that’s after we put our speaker on high volume, sang our heart out along with the music, one of us even started dancing her signature crab dance😂. It was pure fun! When the rest of them settled in their tents, we opted to be left behind enjoyed the warm of the evening water, gazed into the star-filled sky, spent another hour there and then finally settled in my hammock.

enjoying the sunset with a joyful heart

So I lay there in my hammock underneath the sea of stars, it was heaven on earth. I lay there staring at the sky contemplating of the day that has been. Spending the entire day here in the island with all these random people was amazing, people with the same mindset as you are, people who just wanna have a good time. And in that one day, i feel closer to them more than with other people that i encounter on a daily basis. Its both weird and amazing how can you be so at ease with people you just met. Its must be because we share the same passion for traveling.

Morning after a long night drinking sessions is always the worst, but to wake up to this view. It brings positive vibration.

Morning are the best during camping, everybody’s busy with morning chores prepping food and stuff. And of course early morning dip. Right after we ate our breakfast we all of us started heading to the beach and enjoyed our remaining hours in the cove. There’s never really a dull moment when you’re with your fellow crazies. Any moment somebody would crack a joke and even if its not that hilarious hearing people laugh would make you laugh out loud as well. Our final day begun just like that.

Another hour came and we finally left the cove and it was rather a rough ride to our next stop, LaManoc Island. Approximately 45 minutes boat right to this beautiful island. There we were insatiable for yet another paradise, like we haven’t spent the last 24 hours devouring Kang Elena cove. To our defense though, the island is pretty awesome it has this beautiful landscape and picturesque surroundings, it has this long white sand bar that connects two island together allowing us to explore the other adjacent island. It was perfect, the sun was on its peak, the water so clear and I can’t get enough of the of the picture perfect white sandbar. And in that island, 15 souls lost themselves. 15 wanderers was enchanted by the beauty that was LaManoc Island. 15 strangers turned friends made and left memories nobody can take away from us.

And just like that, we ended our 2 day trip to Carnaza. At the end of this trip I can only say two things. 1) We went here as 15 complete strangers, we were going home as friends. 2) We will definitely find our way back to Carnaza Island, may it not be together but for sure this wont be the last of us visiting here. The island is exceptional, there is something in this island that keep our wanderlust burning. It keep us thinking of more travels to come.

Memories Of You

I was cleaning my room when i saw a shoe box of our memories, i wonder if we ever bump into each other again, should i ask you “do you remember how crazy we were for each other?” how i adored the natural glow in your skin and the love in your eyes every time i said your name and kissed your cheeks, that chubby cheeks, i remembered. all i ever wanted was to hold your hand every single minute of ever single day even when i was working i imagined myself holding your hands. your hands that held my lungs my bones my heart.. every piece of my living. i lived for you. remember? how i grew into you and you grew into me. remember? you were like my favorite sweater i never checked if you fit i just wore you every single day and pretended you look so good on me. remember our planned adventures? that no matter how life threatening it could be as long as there’s you and me we’d cheat death and breathe for each other. and once upon a time i use to draw one thousand maps on your back while you’re asleep and each map will lead us back home to each other but now that home smells like burning and im sill learning how not smell you in every cup of coffee and in every vanilla scented room. i still remember you when im making cheesecakes or making business plans. i still needed you to be there for me and call me when things get so cranky. but in the end you held my tears like they were salt on your wounds, promises not kept, every time i wept it’s for everything, between our first kiss and me scrapping your shattered love songs on the floor sobbing, begging please.. we got this let’s just give it one more chance. we can get through this. if you don’t believe me look at the scars i carved on my own skin to remind me that blood is nothing compared to heartbreak. but you looked at me loveless and with shotgun words you killed me there. i learned that when your heart broke faster than the speeding bullet it hurts a whole lot more than a hundred bombs exploding. and if id ever be given a chance to tell how i felt id tell you i love you and mean it for the very last time. and with and smile on my face and the love in my heart i wish you all the happiness i could never give. #letter #forgivemefordoingthis

#anniversaryfeels

An Open Letter To My Ex: This Is How Hurt I Was When You Left

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What you did to me – is something I did not expect from you. All I ever did is love you. I prioritized your happiness over mine; even over to my family. I gave you my full attention, but all those years I am just a decoration in your life, a hidden secret. Because I loved you too much over the span of 3 years. It was a life of constant pain but it was okay coz I love you. And the pain of losing you is unbearable compared to the physical and emotional pain you’ve caused every now and again.

But the one time that I caused you too much pain you use it against me, You probably made it the reason for you to think its okay to seek comfort from other people. Or maybe that’s what you’ve been telling yourself, that it’s okay to move on from me coz I’ve caused too much pain. That was 1 time, I thought we were stronger than that, i had faith in our relationship. You used to tell me you’re not that kind of person who gets into relationship that easily after previous relationship, I trusted your words.. I trusted you.

But clearly that’s not the case anymore because now you’re with someone else. And while you’re happy with that person, I am here trying to salvage the pieces of my broken heart. I am here crying myself over someone that doesn’t deserve my tears. You told me to be happy, if it was very easy to be happy after what you did I would have chosen to be just that. But it’s very difficult, because the pain is overwhelming and it is what I’ve been feeling for the past 3weeks. And yes you told me it’ll be easier for me to get over you because I have new set of friends, I hope it’s that easy but who am I kidding. But that’s what you’ve been telling yourself right? To make you feel better, that I’ve got them so I should be fine. What else have you been telling yourself to justify your actions? To free yourself from guilt? That I have changed? Is that makes you feel okay of what you are doing to me right now? That I have somebody else in my life too? You know me better than that. And I wouldn’t be this hurt and angry if indeed I have somebody else in my life.

But keep on telling yourself that, to make you feel good. Because thats what you always do, and you’re very good at it — being selfish. Good luck to both of you, good luck to your future because unless you’ll change your attitude towards people, your personality, the way you think. You will always end up unsatisfied and unhappy. So enjoy the moment while that person doesn’t know the real you, because the moment that’s person discover who you really are, that person will realize how sickening you are. That beneath that facade you perfectly put up, is a rotten individual. Because you value other people’s opinion more than the people that matters.

I have to hand it to you though, you’re one gutsy person. You even blocked me. D’you think I will run after you this time? After what you did? My friends are right, it’s better to get rid of the toxic people in my life as early as now, and I really think my life would be better without you. I should be with people who will support me and will encourage me to do great things about my life, clearly that’s not you. Because what you’ve done all these years was pull me down. You’ve became the worst critic in my life, not the kind that gave me advice to be a better person but that one who just gave ill opinion for the sake of putting my confidence down, and it shouldn’t be like that. You were like an anchor that hindered me from moving forward. I didn’t know that before because I was blinded by my feelings, but now I can clearly see things. You are not worthy of my undying devotion. Time will come I will thank you for doing this to me, for breaking my spirit, for crashing my heart. But not today, no. Today I will bitchslap you with the truth!!

Enjoy your moment with that person because I know for sure that’s temporary, or If you’ll end up with together, well and good. Your welfare and happiness , or your image is the least of my concern now. So don’t ask me to promise something to you, because you’re not in the position of asking favors from me now. Continue looking over you’re shoulder, because people will judge you. And I won’t be there to give assurance anymore because am not obliged to make you feel better. The truth will eventually come out sooner or later and good luck! Karma is a bitch, it will catch up on you very soon. I’m so done with you now.

If anything, thanks for the 3years of being with you. It was longer than I expected it to last. You’re always be my dream come true, even when it turned out to be a nightmare. And literally, t’was hell of a ride. Thanks for the memories though it was not all bad. This is my last piece of the puzzle before I move on. Now live your life the way you wanna live it. And good riddance.

You Lost Her

You lost her.

For all you thought, you need a new place to stay,
But you did not realize that your home is where her smile is at.
You thought someone can make you happier,
But you did not realize that her laugh is what makes you the happiest.

You thought someone came to be your sun,
But you did not realize that she is your moon that lights you up in your darkest night.
You thought someone’s sweeter than her,
But you did not realize that she is the cause of your most painful toothache that’s worth suffering for.

You thought that just because someone can give you her everything, she’s better than her.
But you did not realize, she had already given the last piece of her.
And you thought that you’re already in love with someone else but you… You forgot that you’ve already given your heart to her. And that’s when you realize that she still has it.

Yes, you lost her.
But then you realized, you also lost yourself.

Words by  : Mayel Tapic
Originally posted at: Betsin-artparasites  fb page
Art By: Ruth Esther Tejano Lobo

 

 

Heartbreaks, Heartaches, Headaches : The Sound of a Broken Heart

Do you ever know how heartbreak sounds like? It’s like a missed kiss on your cheek before the alarm goes off. It sounds like the morning shower never taken. It sounds like a cooked breakfast for two taken by one. It’s sounds like the lack of voice saying your name plus the word beautiful in one sentence. They say you’d get that gut feel when a relationship is about to go down the drain.

I didn’t only had that gut feel, I have that feeling in my entire body, from the hairs on my arms, to my skin, down to my bones. The feeling of sadness seeps through my body down to my very soul. Most of the time i lay on my bed, eyes unfocused as Igazed at the ceiling, the past and the future a blank.

Waiting for that knock on the door that never really came. It was oppressive, suffocating – so quiet thatit eventually became a roar that drowned out everything else. I feel myself shrinking, like a sand castleslowly being washed away with every wave.

My mom is lecturing me while her eyes full of pity. Better days are coming she says. Days are breaking in all it’s new found glory yet, all i can think about is the past. Why didn’t you ever tell me that the foundation you taught me to stand on is made fromquicksand?

How can i ever get pass this roaring silence and numbing pain? I hope this downward spiral life will find an uphillslope soon.

© Lourdel Ludovica – everything’s gonna be alright, eventually. Hang on there my friend.